The comeback!

Okay, okay, I took my time off.
It's not like I have some huge fan club that would be disappointed by my absence! And to my defense, it is very hard to keep up when everything around you is changing at a crazy pace.

So I have crossed the ocean.
I have settled down.
I am moving forward.

I am also tempted to say "itallworkedoutintheend" but I fear the change in tense will piss that Murphy guy off and hell will break lose!

How do I feel? I'm satisfied.
Why? Cause things evolved pretty much as I expected them to. People have disappeared, people have u-turned  but most importantly, those who I expected to stick around are still there for me. It feels good when your hunch is right and no matter how cruel the reality, at least you don't get that nasty oh-I-never-saw-that-one-coming feeling.

Other than that, the universe keeps spoiling me and I'm having the time of my life. Only this time I'm gonna make sure things go my way in the end.

Gotta go back to work. I know I haven't nagged about my current project yet, but mind you, that's on its way! (Some things never change)

Little Rewards

You sweat and you pant and you then sweat some more.

Your feet complain from climbing up the rocks and your skin gets hotter and hotter every time you're exposed to the sun.

But you go on, you've already walked this far, you cant give up now!

You can hear the water running below...
You can smell the sage growing around you...
You feel the leaves touching you as you walk...

And in the end you're there! Astonished by the beauty of the nature, happy to be part of it again.

It's finally time. You take a deep breath and jump into the icy water...

Proportion Adjustments

Some people say we're like islands. And that the relationships we build with each other are the bridges that unite us.

Well, I disagree.

I most definitely feel like an island myself but all i get to see around me are more islands in the horizon.
No bridges.

In almost feels like the view of the sky at night. You think you're looking at a bunch of beautiful stars  but in reality that's just an illusion. What you're really looking at is a reflection of that they used to be. It's the same with people. You only get to see them from a certain distance. Islands don't pull away nor come any closer. We just chose to believe so because we're focusing on them trying to figure out what life is like over there. But do we ever get to know how it actually feels to be on that island? No. Same way we cant really know a person. All you get is a blurry vision from far away that you probably also adjust to what you hope it looks like.

And if the sea brings some part of it over, it feels like a little treat from heaven. But is it really? I'm afraid we'll never really know. That's the mystery and the beauty of it.

But one day, some little cloud goes away and you realize that they're no bridges any more. Probably never there to begin with. You're on your own, surrounded by sea and all there's left to do, is take the time and get to know your own island before setting off for new adventures.

Torn in pieces

They say we all have our different selves, and that people suffering from DID are the ones that simply cannot cope with that. 


Dunno how many girls live inside my head but i know that most of the time, they fail to feel the same  things. There's the happy, the stressed, the guilty, the annoyed, the hopeful, the stubborn, the lonely... and they all want their 15 minutes. 


No wonder people feel i'm nuts.


But then, it's not like i ever existed without them... I guess we humans can get quite selective in the inputs we care to process. 


The rest is filtered out and we pretend it was never there to begin with. 

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Απόσπασμα από την Athens Voice της προηγούμενης εβδομάδας:

Αιγώκερως

(...) Σου δίνεται η διαύγεια να αντιληφθείς ότι κανένας δεν μπορεί να μπει εμπόδιο στον δρόμο σου και στους στόχους σου, ότι κάθε στραβοπάτημα και ατυχία σε ενδυναμώνουν και ότι πρέπει να αφήσεις την προσωπική σου Αλήθεια να σε οδηγήσει.
Ακόμα κι αν πρέπει να αλλάξεις χώρα, ακόμα κι αν πρέπει να φύγεις μακριά από το σπίτι σου, ακόμα και αν πρέπει να βγείς γυμός στην Ομόνοια, ακόμα και αν πρέπει να εγκαταλείψεις αγαπημένους ανθρώπους για να αποδείξεις την αξία σου, θα το κάνεις.
Ένα αερόστατο για να ανεβεί ψηλά πρέπει να πετάξει οτιδήποτε βαρύ κ άχρηστο.
Μπορεί να θλίβεσαι για ό,τι πετάς, όμως τίποτα δεν μπορει να αντικαταστήσει το οξυγόνο που σου δίνει η ελευθερία να είσαι ο εαυτός σου.

Τα λόγια είναι περιττά...

...it all worked out in the end

How could I not pay my tribute to an aweosme song that actually includes my moto in its verses?


Step 1   is admitting it to your own self
Step 2   is communicating your feelings
Step 3   is accepting that life goes on


and then the sun shines again and your smile is brighter than ever... :)

If only I don't Bend and Break...

I've always wondered what kind of experiences take you the limits and make you realise new things about yourself. Some times they're good, some times they're not. But itsn't it good to get to know who you really are no matter the pain?

I'd like to say i wish life were simpler. But i don't. And if that's what it takes to feel alive, i'll have it any time of the day.

I don't care where i end up with my little ideal bubble world.
But i'm sticking to it and plan enjoy the ride as well.

Any objections? Overruled!