Ever since I remember myself I have always wanted to get away.
Trains, airports, cars... they all attract me in a way I cannot explain. I want to get inside, empty my head from thoughts and just look outside the window. It almost feels like I'm looking at my own life go by. No wonder it is comforting. No decisions, you just follow the track and go.
I pretend not to notice, but this feeling never goes away and now I'm tired. Is this ever going to end? Or am I to wonder from place to place without knowing where I belong?
All I want is to finally find my destination.
A place that feels like home...
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Sunday, December 5, 2010
It is all a matter of motivation...
I cannot help but feel amazed at the power of motivation.
It makes me wonder if we ever really know our limits at all. How many times have I heard people (or even me) say "oh, I'd never do that" or "I hate doing this"... and then when you least expect it you see yourself not only doing all those things you "hated" but also enjoying them. Of course that's when you blame life for being a bitch and just wanting to prove you wrong all the time. But let's be serious here; I'm pretty sure life's got more important things to do than waste time over you.
So the question remains, do you ever really know who you are or does it all come down to sufficient amounts of motivation?
It makes me wonder if we ever really know our limits at all. How many times have I heard people (or even me) say "oh, I'd never do that" or "I hate doing this"... and then when you least expect it you see yourself not only doing all those things you "hated" but also enjoying them. Of course that's when you blame life for being a bitch and just wanting to prove you wrong all the time. But let's be serious here; I'm pretty sure life's got more important things to do than waste time over you.
So the question remains, do you ever really know who you are or does it all come down to sufficient amounts of motivation?
Saturday, December 4, 2010
How to make the most amaaaazing lentil soup
Step1. Starve yourself all day so that you have no other option but to cook something of your own.
Step2. Pull up what seems like a decent lentil soup recipe.
Step3. Go to the supermarket and buy pretty much everything as your fridge is empty (this also helps in the starvation proctess described in step1).
Step4. Call your mom and ask her for her secret ingredient. (You pretend that there is one so that if the soup fails you'll have a handy excuse).
Step5. Pull up Pandora and find some mood-elevating-all-I-want-to-do-is-cook music
Step6. Pull up your blog and start describing your experience cause hell, this is an important moment.
Step7. Take your laptop with you in the kitchen and make your self a mojito (Tipsy cooking: handy excuse #2).
Step8. Start putting the groceries in the fridge. Realize that this should have been step5.
Step9. Realize that you didn't but lentils and the ones you have at home may not be enough.
Step10. Convert 8ounces to lbs to see if the lentils are going to be enough. (You doubt it)
Step11. You're 4ounces short so you're making half the quantity now. It's ok because it was supposed to be 4 servings to begin with.
Step12. Start thinking about extra things to cook. Feel happy that you got those Spinach Pesto Puffs.
Step13. Put pastries on a baking pan. Write a note to yourself on the fridge to make sure you don't forget about them.
Step 14. Do the dishes, there's no room to cook here!
Step15. "Place lentils in a large saucepan, cover with 1 inch of water. Place over medium-high heat and bring to a boil; cook for 10 minutes, then drain lentils into a strainer."
Step16. Sip. Turn up the volume. Shake booty.
Step17. Mince one onion and chop a carrot.
Step18. Think about where you should put your xmas lights.
Step18. "Dry saucepan, pour in olive oil, and place over medium heat. Add garlic, onion, and carrot; cook and stir until the onion has softened and turned translucent, about 5 minutes. Pour in lentils, 1 quart water, oregano, rosemary, and bay leaves. Bring to a boil. Reduce heat to medium-low, cover, and simmer for 10 minutes."
Step19. Throw all measuring cups on the floor. Niiiice.
Step20. Add some more water. 2 cups don't seem enough. Totally regretting this later...
Step21. Be proud that you didn't have to buy bay leaves cause you already had some. Huh!
Step22. Spend 3 minutes looking for your cellphone. Just enough for the lentils to start boiling.
Step23. Realize you've been listening to Eminem and change stations.
Step24. Refill salt container.
Step25. Look at your glass. There is too much Mojito. Sip. Sip. Sip.
Step26. "Stir in tomato paste and season to taste with salt and pepper. Cover and simmer until the lentils have softened, 30 to 40 minutes, stirring occasionally. Add additional water if the soup becomes too thick."
Step27. Set up an alarm for 30 min from now.
Step 28. Start tidying up. So domestic!
Step 29. Put on Xmas light around the living room windows. Know deep inside that they wont be ever getting off.
Step 30. Realize you need to do laundry asap. Mental Note: Next apartment must have a washing machine!
Step31. Empty the rest of the Mojito bottle. It has been in the fridge for too long anyways.
Step32. Take a look at the soup. Realize there's not much water left and the taste is too plain. Add water and salt... this is not looking good!
Step33. Taste it again. Maybe it's not that bad...
Step34. Alarm clock goes off. What is done is done!
Step35. Take rest of drink to the couch and relax till dinner time!
Step2. Pull up what seems like a decent lentil soup recipe.
Step3. Go to the supermarket and buy pretty much everything as your fridge is empty (this also helps in the starvation proctess described in step1).
Step4. Call your mom and ask her for her secret ingredient. (You pretend that there is one so that if the soup fails you'll have a handy excuse).
Step5. Pull up Pandora and find some mood-elevating-all-I-want-to-do-is-cook music
Step6. Pull up your blog and start describing your experience cause hell, this is an important moment.
Step7. Take your laptop with you in the kitchen and make your self a mojito (Tipsy cooking: handy excuse #2).
Step8. Start putting the groceries in the fridge. Realize that this should have been step5.
Step9. Realize that you didn't but lentils and the ones you have at home may not be enough.
Step10. Convert 8ounces to lbs to see if the lentils are going to be enough. (You doubt it)
Step11. You're 4ounces short so you're making half the quantity now. It's ok because it was supposed to be 4 servings to begin with.
Step12. Start thinking about extra things to cook. Feel happy that you got those Spinach Pesto Puffs.
Step13. Put pastries on a baking pan. Write a note to yourself on the fridge to make sure you don't forget about them.
Step 14. Do the dishes, there's no room to cook here!
Step15. "Place lentils in a large saucepan, cover with 1 inch of water. Place over medium-high heat and bring to a boil; cook for 10 minutes, then drain lentils into a strainer."
Step16. Sip. Turn up the volume. Shake booty.
Step17. Mince one onion and chop a carrot.
Step18. Think about where you should put your xmas lights.
Step18. "Dry saucepan, pour in olive oil, and place over medium heat. Add garlic, onion, and carrot; cook and stir until the onion has softened and turned translucent, about 5 minutes. Pour in lentils, 1 quart water, oregano, rosemary, and bay leaves. Bring to a boil. Reduce heat to medium-low, cover, and simmer for 10 minutes."
Step19. Throw all measuring cups on the floor. Niiiice.
Step20. Add some more water. 2 cups don't seem enough. Totally regretting this later...
Step21. Be proud that you didn't have to buy bay leaves cause you already had some. Huh!
Step22. Spend 3 minutes looking for your cellphone. Just enough for the lentils to start boiling.
Step23. Realize you've been listening to Eminem and change stations.
Step24. Refill salt container.
Step25. Look at your glass. There is too much Mojito. Sip. Sip. Sip.
Step26. "Stir in tomato paste and season to taste with salt and pepper. Cover and simmer until the lentils have softened, 30 to 40 minutes, stirring occasionally. Add additional water if the soup becomes too thick."
Step27. Set up an alarm for 30 min from now.
Step 28. Start tidying up. So domestic!
Step 29. Put on Xmas light around the living room windows. Know deep inside that they wont be ever getting off.
Step 30. Realize you need to do laundry asap. Mental Note: Next apartment must have a washing machine!
Step31. Empty the rest of the Mojito bottle. It has been in the fridge for too long anyways.
Step32. Take a look at the soup. Realize there's not much water left and the taste is too plain. Add water and salt... this is not looking good!
Step33. Taste it again. Maybe it's not that bad...
Step34. Alarm clock goes off. What is done is done!
Step35. Take rest of drink to the couch and relax till dinner time!
Monday, November 22, 2010
Technology Advances
This is my first post via my lovely 5G phone.
If this thing works, then I really have no excuses for not doing this often enough!
If this thing works, then I really have no excuses for not doing this often enough!
The comeback!
Okay, okay, I took my time off.
It's not like I have some huge fan club that would be disappointed by my absence! And to my defense, it is very hard to keep up when everything around you is changing at a crazy pace.
So I have crossed the ocean.
I have settled down.
I am moving forward.
I am also tempted to say "itallworkedoutintheend" but I fear the change in tense will piss that Murphy guy off and hell will break lose!
How do I feel? I'm satisfied.
Why? Cause things evolved pretty much as I expected them to. People have disappeared, people have u-turned but most importantly, those who I expected to stick around are still there for me. It feels good when your hunch is right and no matter how cruel the reality, at least you don't get that nasty oh-I-never-saw-that-one-coming feeling.
Other than that, the universe keeps spoiling me and I'm having the time of my life. Only this time I'm gonna make sure things go my way in the end.
Gotta go back to work. I know I haven't nagged about my current project yet, but mind you, that's on its way! (Some things never change)
It's not like I have some huge fan club that would be disappointed by my absence! And to my defense, it is very hard to keep up when everything around you is changing at a crazy pace.
So I have crossed the ocean.
I have settled down.
I am moving forward.
I am also tempted to say "itallworkedoutintheend" but I fear the change in tense will piss that Murphy guy off and hell will break lose!
How do I feel? I'm satisfied.
Why? Cause things evolved pretty much as I expected them to. People have disappeared, people have u-turned but most importantly, those who I expected to stick around are still there for me. It feels good when your hunch is right and no matter how cruel the reality, at least you don't get that nasty oh-I-never-saw-that-one-coming feeling.
Other than that, the universe keeps spoiling me and I'm having the time of my life. Only this time I'm gonna make sure things go my way in the end.
Gotta go back to work. I know I haven't nagged about my current project yet, but mind you, that's on its way! (Some things never change)
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Little Rewards
You sweat and you pant and you then sweat some more.Your feet complain from climbing up the rocks and your skin gets hotter and hotter every time you're exposed to the sun.
But you go on, you've already walked this far, you cant give up now!
You can hear the water running below...
You can smell the sage growing around you...
You feel the leaves touching you as you walk...
And in the end you're there! Astonished by the beauty of the nature, happy to be part of it again.
It's finally time. You take a deep breath and jump into the icy water...
Friday, July 9, 2010
Proportion Adjustments
Some people say we're like islands. And that the relationships we build with each other are the bridges that unite us.
Well, I disagree.
I most definitely feel like an island myself but all i get to see around me are more islands in the horizon.
No bridges.
In almost feels like the view of the sky at night. You think you're looking at a bunch of beautiful stars but in reality that's just an illusion. What you're really looking at is a reflection of that they used to be. It's the same with people. You only get to see them from a certain distance. Islands don't pull away nor come any closer. We just chose to believe so because we're focusing on them trying to figure out what life is like over there. But do we ever get to know how it actually feels to be on that island? No. Same way we cant really know a person. All you get is a blurry vision from far away that you probably also adjust to what you hope it looks like.
And if the sea brings some part of it over, it feels like a little treat from heaven. But is it really? I'm afraid we'll never really know. That's the mystery and the beauty of it.
But one day, some little cloud goes away and you realize that they're no bridges any more. Probably never there to begin with. You're on your own, surrounded by sea and all there's left to do, is take the time and get to know your own island before setting off for new adventures.
Well, I disagree.
I most definitely feel like an island myself but all i get to see around me are more islands in the horizon.
No bridges.
In almost feels like the view of the sky at night. You think you're looking at a bunch of beautiful stars but in reality that's just an illusion. What you're really looking at is a reflection of that they used to be. It's the same with people. You only get to see them from a certain distance. Islands don't pull away nor come any closer. We just chose to believe so because we're focusing on them trying to figure out what life is like over there. But do we ever get to know how it actually feels to be on that island? No. Same way we cant really know a person. All you get is a blurry vision from far away that you probably also adjust to what you hope it looks like.
And if the sea brings some part of it over, it feels like a little treat from heaven. But is it really? I'm afraid we'll never really know. That's the mystery and the beauty of it.
But one day, some little cloud goes away and you realize that they're no bridges any more. Probably never there to begin with. You're on your own, surrounded by sea and all there's left to do, is take the time and get to know your own island before setting off for new adventures.
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