Monday, December 27, 2010

When things go wrong

1. Bus trip cancelled
2. Snow storm turning into blizzard
4. Change in plane trip because of the weather
5. Missing luggage
6. Arriving late to the airport
6. Delayed flight
7. Non responsive airline
8. Stuck trains

My world is out of control...

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Train stations

Ever since I remember myself I have always wanted to get away.
Trains, airports, cars... they all attract me in a way I cannot explain. I want to get inside, empty my head from thoughts and just look outside the window. It almost feels like I'm looking at my own life go by. No wonder it is comforting. No decisions, you just follow the track and go.

I pretend not to notice, but this feeling never goes away and now I'm tired. Is this ever going to end? Or am I to wonder from place to place without knowing where I belong?

All I want is to finally find my destination.
A place that feels like home...

Sunday, December 5, 2010

It is all a matter of motivation...

I cannot help but feel amazed at the power of motivation.

It makes me wonder if we ever really know our limits at all. How many times have I heard people (or even me) say "oh, I'd never do that" or "I hate doing this"... and then when you least expect it you see yourself not only doing all those things you "hated" but also enjoying them. Of course that's when you blame life for being a bitch and just wanting to prove you wrong all the time. But let's be serious here; I'm pretty sure life's got more important things to do than waste time over you.

So the question remains, do you ever really know who you are or does it all come down to sufficient amounts of motivation?

Saturday, December 4, 2010

How to make the most amaaaazing lentil soup

Step1.     Starve yourself all day so that you have no other option but to cook something of your own.
Step2.     Pull up what seems like a decent lentil soup recipe.
Step3.     Go to the supermarket and buy pretty much everything as your fridge is empty (this also helps in the starvation proctess described in step1).
Step4.     Call your mom and ask her for her secret ingredient. (You pretend that there is one so that if the soup fails you'll have a handy excuse).
Step5.     Pull up Pandora and find some mood-elevating-all-I-want-to-do-is-cook music
Step6.     Pull up your blog and start describing your experience cause hell, this is an important moment.
Step7.     Take your laptop with you in the kitchen and make your self a mojito (Tipsy cooking: handy excuse #2).
Step8.     Start putting the groceries in the fridge. Realize that this should have been step5.
Step9.     Realize that you didn't but lentils and the ones you have at home may not be enough.
Step10.   Convert 8ounces to lbs to see if the lentils are going to be enough. (You doubt it)
Step11.   You're 4ounces short so you're making half the quantity now. It's ok because it was supposed to be 4 servings to begin with.
Step12.   Start thinking about extra things to cook. Feel happy that you got those Spinach Pesto Puffs.
Step13.   Put pastries on a baking pan. Write a note to yourself on the fridge to make sure you don't forget about them.
Step 14.  Do the dishes, there's no  room to cook here!
Step15.   "Place lentils in a large saucepan, cover with 1 inch of water. Place over medium-high heat and bring to a boil; cook for 10 minutes, then drain lentils into a strainer."
Step16.   Sip. Turn up the volume. Shake booty.
Step17.   Mince one onion and chop a carrot.
Step18.   Think about where you should put your xmas lights.
Step18.   "Dry saucepan, pour in olive oil, and place over medium heat. Add garlic, onion, and carrot; cook and stir until the onion has softened and turned translucent, about 5 minutes. Pour in lentils, 1 quart water, oregano, rosemary, and bay leaves. Bring to a boil. Reduce heat to medium-low, cover, and simmer for 10 minutes."
Step19.  Throw all measuring cups on the floor. Niiiice.
Step20.   Add some more water. 2 cups don't seem enough. Totally regretting this later...
Step21.   Be proud that you didn't have to buy bay leaves cause you already had some. Huh!
Step22.   Spend 3 minutes looking for your cellphone. Just enough for the lentils to start boiling.
Step23.   Realize you've been listening to Eminem and change stations.
Step24.   Refill salt container.
Step25.   Look at your glass. There is too much Mojito. Sip. Sip. Sip.
Step26.   "Stir in tomato paste and season to taste with salt and pepper. Cover and simmer until the lentils have softened, 30 to 40 minutes, stirring occasionally. Add additional water if the soup becomes too thick."
Step27.   Set up an alarm for 30 min from now.
Step 28.  Start tidying up. So domestic!
Step 29.  Put on Xmas light around the living room windows. Know deep inside that they wont be ever getting off.
Step 30.  Realize you need to do laundry asap. Mental Note: Next apartment must have a washing machine!
Step31.   Empty the rest of the Mojito bottle. It has been in the fridge for too long anyways.
Step32.   Take a look at the soup. Realize there's not much water left and the taste is too plain. Add water and salt... this is not looking good!
Step33.   Taste it again. Maybe it's not that bad...
Step34.   Alarm clock goes off. What is done is done!
Step35.   Take rest of drink to the couch and relax till dinner time!

Monday, November 22, 2010

Technology Advances

This is my first post via my lovely 5G phone.
If this thing works, then I really have no excuses for not doing this often enough!

The comeback!

Okay, okay, I took my time off.
It's not like I have some huge fan club that would be disappointed by my absence! And to my defense, it is very hard to keep up when everything around you is changing at a crazy pace.

So I have crossed the ocean.
I have settled down.
I am moving forward.

I am also tempted to say "itallworkedoutintheend" but I fear the change in tense will piss that Murphy guy off and hell will break lose!

How do I feel? I'm satisfied.
Why? Cause things evolved pretty much as I expected them to. People have disappeared, people have u-turned  but most importantly, those who I expected to stick around are still there for me. It feels good when your hunch is right and no matter how cruel the reality, at least you don't get that nasty oh-I-never-saw-that-one-coming feeling.

Other than that, the universe keeps spoiling me and I'm having the time of my life. Only this time I'm gonna make sure things go my way in the end.

Gotta go back to work. I know I haven't nagged about my current project yet, but mind you, that's on its way! (Some things never change)

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Little Rewards

You sweat and you pant and you then sweat some more.

Your feet complain from climbing up the rocks and your skin gets hotter and hotter every time you're exposed to the sun.

But you go on, you've already walked this far, you cant give up now!

You can hear the water running below...
You can smell the sage growing around you...
You feel the leaves touching you as you walk...

And in the end you're there! Astonished by the beauty of the nature, happy to be part of it again.

It's finally time. You take a deep breath and jump into the icy water...

Friday, July 9, 2010

Proportion Adjustments

Some people say we're like islands. And that the relationships we build with each other are the bridges that unite us.

Well, I disagree.

I most definitely feel like an island myself but all i get to see around me are more islands in the horizon.
No bridges.

In almost feels like the view of the sky at night. You think you're looking at a bunch of beautiful stars  but in reality that's just an illusion. What you're really looking at is a reflection of that they used to be. It's the same with people. You only get to see them from a certain distance. Islands don't pull away nor come any closer. We just chose to believe so because we're focusing on them trying to figure out what life is like over there. But do we ever get to know how it actually feels to be on that island? No. Same way we cant really know a person. All you get is a blurry vision from far away that you probably also adjust to what you hope it looks like.

And if the sea brings some part of it over, it feels like a little treat from heaven. But is it really? I'm afraid we'll never really know. That's the mystery and the beauty of it.

But one day, some little cloud goes away and you realize that they're no bridges any more. Probably never there to begin with. You're on your own, surrounded by sea and all there's left to do, is take the time and get to know your own island before setting off for new adventures.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Torn in pieces

They say we all have our different selves, and that people suffering from DID are the ones that simply cannot cope with that. 


Dunno how many girls live inside my head but i know that most of the time, they fail to feel the same  things. There's the happy, the stressed, the guilty, the annoyed, the hopeful, the stubborn, the lonely... and they all want their 15 minutes. 


No wonder people feel i'm nuts.


But then, it's not like i ever existed without them... I guess we humans can get quite selective in the inputs we care to process. 


The rest is filtered out and we pretend it was never there to begin with. 

Monday, June 21, 2010

Θα'ρχίσω να πιστεύω στα ζώδια!

Απόσπασμα από την Athens Voice της προηγούμενης εβδομάδας:

Αιγώκερως

(...) Σου δίνεται η διαύγεια να αντιληφθείς ότι κανένας δεν μπορεί να μπει εμπόδιο στον δρόμο σου και στους στόχους σου, ότι κάθε στραβοπάτημα και ατυχία σε ενδυναμώνουν και ότι πρέπει να αφήσεις την προσωπική σου Αλήθεια να σε οδηγήσει.
Ακόμα κι αν πρέπει να αλλάξεις χώρα, ακόμα κι αν πρέπει να φύγεις μακριά από το σπίτι σου, ακόμα και αν πρέπει να βγείς γυμός στην Ομόνοια, ακόμα και αν πρέπει να εγκαταλείψεις αγαπημένους ανθρώπους για να αποδείξεις την αξία σου, θα το κάνεις.
Ένα αερόστατο για να ανεβεί ψηλά πρέπει να πετάξει οτιδήποτε βαρύ κ άχρηστο.
Μπορεί να θλίβεσαι για ό,τι πετάς, όμως τίποτα δεν μπορει να αντικαταστήσει το οξυγόνο που σου δίνει η ελευθερία να είσαι ο εαυτός σου.


Τα λόγια είναι περιττά...

Friday, June 11, 2010

...it all worked out in the end

How could I not pay my tribute to an aweosme song that actually includes my moto in its verses?


Step 1   is admitting it to your own self
Step 2   is communicating your feelings
Step 3   is accepting that life goes on


and then the sun shines again and your smile is brighter than ever... :)


Tuesday, June 1, 2010

If only I don't Bend and Break...



I've always wondered what kind of experiences take you the limits and make you realise new things about yourself. Some times they're good, some times they're not. But itsn't it good to get to know who you really are no matter the pain?

I'd like to say i wish life were simpler. But i don't. And if that's what it takes to feel alive, i'll have it any time of the day.

I don't care where i end up with my little ideal bubble world.
But i'm sticking to it and plan enjoy the ride as well.

Any objections? Overruled!

Thursday, May 20, 2010

"Raining" all the way home...

I'll come visit you tomorrow.
I haven't done so in quite some time...
I have news to tell you.
You probably know already.
I think you'll be happy.
Happy about me.
I wish you would tell me so yourself.
Pretending is not easy.
I think of you.
I remember all the things we did.
Reading is not the same anymore.
You knew.
I talked.
When did that happen ever again?
Double forks and my hand being "held"...
You always had your way.
I miss you.
I don't ever want to forget.
Did I ever say thank you?
Letting me into my own secrets...
What a fool I've been.
I'll come visit you tomorrow,
it's been a long time...

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Dedicated to Christine



Savoir sourire
A une inconnue qui passe
N'en garder aucune trace
Sinon celle du plaisir
Savoir aimer
Sans rien attendre en retour
Ni espoir ni grand amour
Pas même l'espoir d'être aimé
Refrain:
Mais savoir donner
Donner sans reprendre
Ne rien faire qu'apprendre
Apprendre à aimer
Aimer sans attendre
Aimer à tout prendre
Apprendre à sourire
Rien que pour le geste
Sans vouloir le reste
Et apprendre à vivre
Et s'en aller
Savoir attendre
Goûter à ce plein bonheur
Qu'on vous donne comme par erreur
Tant on ne l'attendait plus
Se voir y croire
Pour tromper la peur du vide
Ancrée comme autaant de rides
Qui ternissent les miroirs
Refrain
Savoir souffrir
En silence sans murmure
Ni défense ni armure
Souffrir à vouloir mourir
Et se relever
Comme on renaît de ses cendres
Avec tant d'amour à revendre
Qu'on tire un trait sur le passé
Refrain
Apprendre à rêver
A rêver pour deux
Rien qu'en fermant les yeux
Et savoir donner
Donner sans rature
Ni demi-mesure
Apprendre à rester
Vouloir jusqu'au bout
Rester malgré tout
Apprendre à aimer
Et s'en aller
Et s'en aller

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Coming from a long time ago...

Huh! I told you things were going to work out!

I keep telling you people that things are going to work out in the end, but nobody seems to pay attention to me!

Spring Semester is finished and we managed to survive, 
I found a beautiful apartment in Shadyside, 
There will be no group projects in the Summer semester, 
The weather is getting so warm i'm actually thinking of going to the beach,
I'm down to kilos i haven't seen since high school,

and I just I can't stop smiling :)


Monday, May 10, 2010

Defining New Programming Concepts

It's always fun when you try to add some extra functionality to a project (extra as in will-do-it-later-if-have-time) and you realize that you have (probably subconsciously) already prepared the ground for it!

As from today, we shall call this <drumrolls> ..."a-priori programming" </drumrolls>

<applause/>

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Notmakinganysense#1

It's late and i'm sleepless. Sometimes listening to music helps your mind get at ease, but most of the time it doesn't really work that way. It's like this little evil me on my shoulder pushes me to pick all the wrong songs... Thank god there's this little cute angel on the other side of my head that helps keep my thoughts straight. Some times...



So, here i am, getting myself ready for the giant leap. Being a true fan of this blog, i strongly want to believe that it will all work out in the end. Only some times your head, heart and little selfs on both shoulders are not enough to make you believe it. I wish i just had a written contract, if you know what i mean. Only it's the signing authority that troubles me... who's responsible for telling people what they want to hear and take full responsibility at the same time? Nobody i guess. it makes sense if you think how much it hurts every time you break a promise...



So no promises for me then. I'll just have to go and see for myself. And if i fall down onto my face then i guess it's ok. It's always better to regret about thing's you've done rather than things you didn't.

Thursday, May 6, 2010

It all worked out in the end

Sometimes you just need to have faith... and a bit of luck on your side ;)

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Life and Monkey Wrenches

It's almost funny how life manages to get you back to earth every single time you feel like flying.

I remember a friend of mine during high school who used to say "Vipers around the corner"...
Maybe there should be warning signs with "Life around the corner" messages. Or when somebody catches you smile he would be obliged by law to come and tell you "hm... i see you're smiling, are you sure you're looking at the whole picture? maybe you've missed something".

Next think you know... life has hit you on the head with a monkey wrench and you slowly and painfully come back to reality...
Your little bubble is burst and i guess you just have to find the strength to built yourself a new one.

I just fear that I might end up alone in this little bubble of mine.
Then life probably will leave me alone in it...

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Things I want to EAT before leaving...

1. A big soulvaki with extra tzatziki (ok, maybe two of them)
2. An ice-cream crepe at Pierrot's
3. The best vromiko in town by Mary's home
4. Mom's pizza (preferably during Eurovision'10)
5. My homemade traditional pasta (eat half of them while making them and the rest cooked!)

...This list is definitely to be continued :)

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Things I want to do before I leave

I was thinking about it westerday during tennis practice, and I really have to write down all the things i want to do before I leave. I don't want to forget anything really important and then find myself on the other side of the atlantic banging my head on some wall...

1. Do the 3rd Eagles Ride at the Adventure Park.
2. Spend a whole day at PlayHouse.
3. Start and Finish my Botero dancing girl painting. (i wish i could take that with me)
4. Go to Sounio and enjoy the sunset.
5. Swim in the sea and build a sand castle.
6. Take photos with all my friends. Even those I know wont miss me.
7. Walk around Plaka and shop beads.
8. Go dancing at a summer club and stay there until sunrise.

and of course... pay a visit to the person who believed in me like nobody else. I know he's happy about me and I hope i get him to be proud as well. Miss you terribly, i know you're watching over me my angel

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Immaturity Thresholds

Why does it have to be so difficult for some people to simply do what they have to do without you asking them? Every day that goes by, I realize that there are more and more people that instead of growing up they act as if the world is a playground and everybody else is there to serve them.

Newsflash!


Unless you're 5 years old (sometimes even then) you are responsible for your acts and society expects things from you. Whether you like it or not. So stop looking for someone to be your nanny and grow up!

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Things i like about Pittsburgh #2

How could I leave this one out?

Garlic Bread @Union Grill: I already have consumed 7, that's more than the days I've been here... :)

Monday, April 19, 2010

Things i like about Pittsburgh

Squirells running around: admit it, their see-through tails rock!
The crazy weather: 3 seasons in 3 days!
The Pitts-Burgers: as polite as it gets!
ETC: simply at a loss for words...
It's not flat: great excuse for not cycling!

The 36th floor of the Cathedral of Learning: when they put this place up for rent, let me know!

(fyi, this is by no means a comprehensive list!)

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Why I like programming...

First of all some background: I grew up as only-child.

Why is this relevant? Because that meant that boardgames were out of the question!

And how did I entertain myself? Well, let's put it this way... I did spend a lot of quality time with my Lego friends!

Several years and several thousands lines of code later I realized that coding reminds me of playing with my Lego.

Why?

First of all it's all about creating things. Only you're lucky and some very smart people have already created building blocks for you! Usually you have some idea about what you want to do and guess what, you can even find instructions about how to do it! But when you really want to built something great, then you have to be creative. You have to figure out how to assemble the bricks you have without creating something your baby-cousin can destroy with a blow. And on top of that you also have to solve problems that your ready-made bricks cant help you with. Some times you don't even know if what you have in your mind is feasible but if you're prepared to take your chances then you you end up with something beautiful. Whether its a your dream house, a fancy GUI or a geeky car it doesn't really matter. The important thing is that you put a little bit of yourself in it and dammit, it looks great!

So that's why I like programming... who wants to play with me?

Things that distract me

new-arrivals such as the spring sun,
the prospect of eating chocolate after nearly 40 days,
looking for a decent apartment,
looking for furniture for the decent apartment I haven't found yet,
looking for money to buy furniture for the decent apartment I haven't found yet,
this silly maze game I still cannot solve,
thinking about a good april's fool joke,
reading my new comic book (for the 4th time),
imagining myself with my feet in the sand drinking a perfect mojito...

...to be continued!

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

It just feels wrong...

I hate being grumpy. I really do! But sometimes, i just can help it!

And i'm asking:

Would it be OK if I wore my bikini in January?
Would it be OK if I said a ton of lies on May 1st?
Would it be OK if I gave chocolate eggs to children in New Year's?

No. And don't try to tell me otherwise. You'd just look as if I were nuts!

Then, explain to me why I am the only one frustrated at the sight of my neighbor's garden who still lights up the trees as if it were Christmas?

Oh... I really want to creep in his garden by night an put a snowman next to them! Only something's telling me they might just not appreciate my sense of humor... :)

Saturday, February 27, 2010

...or in Greek: Ola Kala Tha Pane!

I still remember the first time I realized that after repeating a word a few times it starts sounding funny. You stop thinking about the meaning of the world and the brain suddenly realizes that there is a sound coming a long with is and.. boy is it weird!

Well, as we all know, there's no rule without an exception and guess what.. "ItWillAllWorkOutInTheEnd" is mine.

I've been repeating and repeating and repeating this phrase to myself and to others in the vain hope of comfort, but not really believing it would help.

And the truth is... it didn't.

Because no matter how much you pray for them, no matter how much you hope and wish and then hope some more, things usually wait for the very very very last minute until they actually reveal their intentions and... work out themselves!

But still, this little bunch of words never started to sound funny no matter how many times I had to invoke it's magical powers in a day. (sure, I did... but that's not our point)

So I'm spreading the word. And every time you feel like it's-just-too-much-to-handle, you can shout "It Will All Work Out In The End" without fearing you will sound dumb...

..and you'll know that you're not alone!